I sit here tonight in the dim light and pose a question to the emptiness of this room. 

~ Is it entirely odd that I am happier alone? ~

This is by no means the first time I've had this cross my mind. I feel overwhelmed when I'm in any type of relationship. I feel smothered, I don't like to be touched, I don't like having to smile and pretend to be content, I don't enjoy having someone to talk to at the end of the day. I know it sounds ridiculously selfish, but I feel like being with someone is just one more chore to add to my already too long list. 

I had one serious relationship which lasted about three years. 

It ended two years ago. 

I still miss him every day. 

I can't help but psycho analyze the situation and wonder if the reason I can't be happy with someone else, is because I can't let go of him. 

Then again, maybe I just truly dislike people and am destined to be single forever. (scary part is, it doesn't sound half bad!)

..........I have way too much thinking time on my hands.......

Sorry to put you, dear reader through the messy gears of my psyche. 

On a lighter note, tomorrow at 5pm begins my nine day vacation!

Nothing exciting, but it will be nice to get away from work for a bit and have some fun time. Hopefully I will be posting some fun photos from my time off!