My city looks like Narnia when it's blustery.

 

Didn't know berries grew this late in the season?

I had the absolute worst night of my life last night! I am sick (of course, what's new?) so I woke up about 50 times over the span of seven hours either completely freezing, overwhelmingly hot, drowning in my own drool or choking to death. It was amazing. And I'm sure you've just managed to gather the loveliest of images of my sleepy sick disgruntled self.  Wow, why do I do that to myself?

Anywhooooo....

I have been connecting with a group of individuals lately who I can truly have a great time with. I always have a hard time finding common ground with 85% of my generation, but I am so thankful that I am making a few strong bonds.  Funny thing is they were there all along, only now are we coming together. The most ironic part is that we have all felt so alone in our struggles to identify with our culture but, when we are together we seem to be our own little community. It's incredible. This must be what it feels like to have friends(?). Haha. 

Going to take a truckload of Viatmin C... any other suggestions? 

The dreams are still very real. I hate waking up nowadays. Not because it means that I have to get out of bed, but because I have to open my eyes and leave it all behind. I have to realize there is not a sleeping baby in my arms anymore, my body holds no life but my own, and the elation will not be felt again until I close my eyes the following night. It makes me impatient, and that small voice in my mind whispers to me that I will never have such things in my life.  

I cherish every minute of every day and I am not looking to fast forward the years of my life to get to that point, but my heart aches. My arms seem empty. My soul longs for the joy I feel in my dreams, and the joy that will far surpass anything I can imagine feeling. 

Winter time beaches are pretty.

I'm slightly handicap, apologies all....

So, being that I'm the smartest girl in the world I just realized last night that people were leaving comments on my posts!

I had no idea anybody even read my crazy ramblings, I am happily shocked! And I just have to say I apologize for my ignorance, I promise I haven't just been blowing you guys off. 

I also want to thank you who have commented for your incredibly kind and encouraging words, you are truly lovely. 

Have an excellent Saturday :)

Eventful beginning to the weekend so far. I went for a walk in the woods, here are a couple of the pictures I snapped. I then came home and warmed up with some tea and baked scones. This would be my first attempt at making them and I think they turned out really really well. I added orange zest and golden raisins. Yummmm.

I like days like today when everything feels cozy and it's twenty degrees out. 

Tonight is the office Christmas party, not looking forward to it much. I think people have a hard time figuring me out. Especially my co-workers. They can't figure out why I'm single, or why I choose to stay that way. They informed me that tonight they will find an appropriate fellow for me to have a one night stand with. They claim I am at the prime age to have such "fun". 

Of course I reminded them (while trying not to let my completely mortified expression give me away) that I am simply not that kind of girl. I am happy with my life and wouldn't change a thing. I don't need someone to complete me. 

That did nothing for my situation though. They are still hellbent on finding someone. Anyone. Whatever. I am half tempted to show up in sweats with my hair a mess, but I probably wouldn't have a job come Monday if I went that route. 

So tonight should be interesting to say the least. 

I just wish people would leave well enough alone. 

Bedtime (I hope)

winter is definitely setting in here in upstate NY. I love the season, but seriously dislike the common cold that tends to come with it. I love my job don't get me wrong, but working in such an incredibly close proximity (actually in their mouths!) to children from the ages of 5-19,  I am finding that I might be experiencing the beginnings of my first illness of the year.

But enough about my immune system.

I have had several sleepless nights lately, along with very disturbing dreams when I actually do find sleep. I will settle myself in bed no later than 10 pm, but sleep finds me no sooner than midnight. Then I will wake up every hour to see if I've overslept. Finally my alarm rings at 5:45 am. During the interim of actual asleep time, I've found that my dreams are so vivid and real that I forget from day to day weather my conversations and actions were real, or something my mind made up. It's very frustrating. Had a glass of wine tonight, hopefully that will help.

Had to order a few more books today. I will have my freshly started 634 page novel read by the end of the weekend I'm sure. So I have Pride and Prejudice and Wuthering Heights on the way. I am so excited to dive into a few classics! And I love that I have been able to find classics on Amazon for $.01, plus shipping. Better than any bookstore deal around here! 

Another day comes to a close. Sweet Dreams all.....